My mood this morning was so so so horrible!! I blame my sugar binge from last night... lesson learned.
Today I was very good. I ate really well when I was at work and I tried to keep positive.... but when I got home it was different. So thats what I have to work on now.
I'm craving sugar right now!! I had a mint and now I'm off to do intervals on the treadmill.
Day One break down:
Total Ciggarettes: 5 (since I'm now keeping track, I've realized I smoke all of my cigarettes in the car. Really)
Total Fuck-ups: I'm gunna say 3 and a half. 1- still consuming wayyyyy too much sugar. and 2 and a half as in 2 and a half chocolate-hazelnut crescents... damn it.
I am not letting that de-rail my day. I made a bad choice... I acknowledge it and now I'm putting it behind me and moving forward...
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Ride the wagon
I know, I know, I know! My blog name is so cheesy. But sometimes, cheesy is just me.
So let's just cut to the chase...
This blog is about change. About changing. About changes. And sometimes, even loose change.
I've come to a realization about myself that I need to do something: Change. I want to take better care of myself and of my body because these past years have taken alot out on my body, my spirit, my psyche. I've always kept a journal, and I've always wanted to read it to someone. So I thought I would just give this a shot.
Tomorrow I am beginning my "DAY ONE".
First things first- I am going in to this, with this in mind:
-I don't believe in scales. A number is NOT going to measure how good a person feels. F- that.
-I'm taking this all one day at a time. Sometimes I even have to do one minute at a time.
-I am sick- not the "I have a cold" sick... I have digestive disorders that severally impact my life...I have also been diagnosed with having an anxiety disorder.
-I believe that if you physically feel good, you mentally feel good.
-I also believe "knowledge is power". Knowing as much as you can about something, so you can do it right. Like about knowing your enemy, knowing what you can do to destroy it where it stands. I'm not just talking about your Nemesis from 8th grade... but everyone has an enemy within themselves. You have to know the enemy, whether you're like me and have digestive problems and an inner person that just wants to say "f*** it" and get high and eat all this food that's like toxic chemicals...
-'KNOW THYSELF' No one knows you better than you do. Know your body. Listen to it when it's hungry, or needs rest or is stressed out and needs to be worked out on the bike.
This was my mantra a few months ago. Then, I fell off the wagon. And now, I'm picking myself back up and getting back on.
So let's just cut to the chase...
This blog is about change. About changing. About changes. And sometimes, even loose change.
I've come to a realization about myself that I need to do something: Change. I want to take better care of myself and of my body because these past years have taken alot out on my body, my spirit, my psyche. I've always kept a journal, and I've always wanted to read it to someone. So I thought I would just give this a shot.
Tomorrow I am beginning my "DAY ONE".
First things first- I am going in to this, with this in mind:
-I don't believe in scales. A number is NOT going to measure how good a person feels. F- that.
-I'm taking this all one day at a time. Sometimes I even have to do one minute at a time.
-I am sick- not the "I have a cold" sick... I have digestive disorders that severally impact my life...I have also been diagnosed with having an anxiety disorder.
-I believe that if you physically feel good, you mentally feel good.
-I also believe "knowledge is power". Knowing as much as you can about something, so you can do it right. Like about knowing your enemy, knowing what you can do to destroy it where it stands. I'm not just talking about your Nemesis from 8th grade... but everyone has an enemy within themselves. You have to know the enemy, whether you're like me and have digestive problems and an inner person that just wants to say "f*** it" and get high and eat all this food that's like toxic chemicals...
-'KNOW THYSELF' No one knows you better than you do. Know your body. Listen to it when it's hungry, or needs rest or is stressed out and needs to be worked out on the bike.
This was my mantra a few months ago. Then, I fell off the wagon. And now, I'm picking myself back up and getting back on.
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